Monday, March 1, 2010

One Year On...




Not many of you know, that one year ago this month, we suffered a heartbreaking miscarriage.  I was only 6-7 weeks along, but our long awaited baby was cherished from before conception and therefore very much wanted and loved.

I had a very tough three months following this awful event, due to medical complications and severe pain caused by the miscarriage.  I was broken-hearted.  I prayed alot during that time and truly felt like I was being 'carried through the sand'.  There were also other times when I felt totally helpless and broken, wondering how I could ever get over the feelings of 'emptiness' in my womb.  My wonderful husband who was also hurting was a tremendous support and source of comfort to me at that time.  My parents visited regularly to help with the children and to 'just talk'.

Now and then my heart feels heavy when I think back to that time; but ultimately I know that we will have more children; but it is in this area I find it hard to be patient with the Lord and am always praying and asking Him "When Lord, when will we be blessed again?" "How much longer must we wait?". 

Now one year on I pray that the Lord will bless us in His timing and until then, that He will allow me cling to Him when I am afraid, impatient and saddened.  Thank you for allowing me to share this story...


5 comments:

Stacie, A Firefighter's Wife said...

Oh, you sweet thing. I know well how you feel. I have had two glory babies myself. You can check out my miscarriage stories on the label "miscarriage" on my blog. I pray that God will continue to give you strength as you grieve for your loved and cherished baby. Thank you for sharing. You are not alone.

Erin said...

I remember the first time we talked and you were just getting over losing your baby. I am praying that you guys will be blessed with another baby very soon.

...they call me mommy... said...

I understand...I also have a sweet one with the Lord! (((HUGS)))

Thank you for stopping by my blog and for your sweet comments! I've poked around your blog a bit and it is so neat! :) Love your daughter's name, btw! ;)

Blessings,
Amy

Cheesemakin' Mamma said...

I've watched my sister go through this twice. I'm so sorry that you've experienced this as well. I'm praying God will continue to mend your broken hearts.

I'm struggling with infertility myself. I've had two and so far that seems to be it. We'll see what God has planned. My daughter is 2 1/2 and I've got baby fever bad. But I continue to wait on the Lord. I know He has our best interests at heart. May God bless you guys!

Sarah said...

Thank you wonderful sisters in Christ! Your thoughtful and supportive comments mean so much to me!

Jackie, I will be praying for you. I also struggle with infertility and I know how our feelings can overwhelm and consume us.

God Bless all of you ladies and thank you again.